It's true.

I can't drink white coffee anymore. Why? Because I'll have nightmare at night. Argh. I don't know the scientific reason, but I did have nightmare during night after I drink a cup of white coffee. *Based on the experiment I done 2-3 week before* Quite sad, right?

Sorry Old Town, I can't be your customer anymore.. T-T

How about you'll? What make you having nightmares?

if only there will be a guy that will proposed me similar like this...

I nearly cry watching this video. *like I'm the one who getting proposed* She is so lucky getting something in her wish list as the proposal. And this is such a sweet proposal. So, to my dear Mr. Soulmate, can you proposed me just like that, or even better. *that's my wish* 

p/s : I'm such a hopeless romantic, I know

Thanks.

There must be a silver lining in every cloud

Allah tidak akan membebankan seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya.

(Surah Al-Baqarah : 286)

Verily, with every difficulty, there's a relief.

(Surah Al-Insyirah : 3-4)

Don't be sad when difficulties and sadness strikes us, because that shows Allah's love upon us. He want us to stay closer to Him. And not to forget, every cloud has its silver lining, just wait for it. It's only the matter of time. Just be patient.

p/s : I know that patient is easy to say than to be done. It takes a lot of courage to do so. But, the wound will heal itself from time to time. All I want to say and do is, be patient. Allah's know best what is happening on us.

p.p/s : To all people who had encounter some of difficulties lately, hold on. Pray to Allah for the strength to handle the difficulties. You can do it because Allah will never treat us with something that we can't handle. Gambatene!!

Living like a lie

... like living in a double life, or maybe many lives.

p/s : accomplish 1 paragraph of assignment instead of 3 pages of essay . well done. *sacarsm*


mode : white coffee, insomnia and nightmare - panda eyes, lethargic.

blame on the caffeine

Everyone one seems to have a nickname for their other half. Should I also think a name that suit him? How about ..............................


Naah, I won't tell you. Wanna save the best for last. *thinking about the future* random talking actually

#nowplaying : rolling in the deep - glee cast.

the scars of your love, remind me of us

they keep me thinking, we almost had it all

  

hopeless romantic

Define hopeless romantic.

1. This person is in love with love.They believe in fairy tales and love.They're not to be confused as stalkers or creepy because that's not what a hopeless romantic is. All hopeless romantics are idealists,the sentimental dreamers,the imaginative and the fanciful when you get to know them.They often live with rose colored glasses on.They make lovelook like an art form with all the romantic things they do for their special someone.

2. Hopeless Romantics are NOT Hopeless per-say, but very true, caring, and loving people. They are "NOT MADE FOR TODAYS STANDARDS", sadly. They believe in passion, chivalry, and true love. They have loved sincerely at one point in their life, discovered what love feels like, and can't understand why it was not returned in the same form. Hopeless Romantics are usually dreamers, idealists, and sincere, however what they expect in any relationship is a full return for their effort and caring, to be loved as much as they loved. What makes them "Hopeless" is the fact that they are few and far between in todays daily life, and usually get let down in the long run, even though they gave all they had to give, money, love, time, housing, belongings. Hopeless Romantics give 100% ALL the time, and hope for the same in return.

3. A person who daydreams about romantic occasions and dreams of chances where he/she will be able to perform a romantic act to their love, yet never gets the chance to.

4. Someone that thinks of love passionately. A hopeless romantic is someone who seeks an opportunity to share a piece of his/her's heart.

 http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=hopeless%20romantic

I'm defining myself. I'm true hopeless romantic. That is why this blog is full of hopeless romantic stuff.  *big smile*  But there are nothing wrong for being hopeless romantic, right? Just need to know the limitation of it.   

random doodle.

I just can't find myself

when I was drown into your love

You seems didn't know 

how my heart has fallen for you 

I'm starting losing my sanity

Hoping you will love me back 

or just to know I'm alive, that's enough 

My heart is hurting when you don't know me 

not even my name 

Why I just can't forget you 

just like you do mine 

It seems like remembering you is so much easier than to get rid of you in my life

But, when I start remembering you, my heart aches

It hurts even more when I want to forget you 

I just don't know what to do.. 

I know times will heals everything 

But, years after years, why the pain won't go away? 

It's torn deeper and deeper 

until I can't reach the surface 

Thus, how can I heal it? 

How much time do I need? 

5 years? 10 years? or maybe for the rest of my life? 

Frankly, deep inside my heart, I hope he is the one

Cause I'm damn tired convincing myself that he isn't

alter ego talking